This new journey in my life has opened my eyes to many things. I am seeing myself differently. I am starting to see food differently. I am seeing God more clearly. I have to change the way I think about many things in my life, including myself.
Food: I saw food as comfort, a stress-reliever, a reward. Going out to eat was our way to relax and unwind. I never really saw food as fuel for my body to function in the right way so that I could serve and glorify God.
Me: I have a lot of work to do still in the way I think of me. To be honest…I’ve been teased my whole life at different times. I know how it feels to be called fat, a whale..to have body parts pointed out and made fun of. That can really affect they way you think about yourself. It’s awful to feel people are embarrassed by you. I’ve felt that pain. I have to see that I am God’s girl, one of kind, precious to Him. Though I may not be where I need to be…God is showing me how much He loves me just how I am. He is also revealing to me each day how much more I can be!
God: I am seeing God in a new light. He has a plan for my life. I have gone through everything for a purpose. There is no plan B! He created me from the moment of conception to be unique, to be like Him…to be Jennifer. He loves me…really, deeply, madly loves me.
Psalm 73:25-26 has spoken volumes to me. I pray it does to you today too.
“Whom have I in heaven but Thee? And besides Thee, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
I want to desire NOTHING on this earth more than I desire God. I will fail, I will stumble but God is my strength and I will get back up. He is my portion, He satifies me, He is everything.
What is He to you today?